You bleed just to know you're alive

Well I was really stupid and temporarily forgot the address for this blog, so I though maybe it had been removed... but thank the Lord no... I'm fed up of sites just removing you hint hint MYSPACE!!!!!

Well school is over (we finished last week) and now it's all revision revision revision... if I could motivate myself to actually do it. I should revise today but I cant help thinking I should actually use the weekend as a weekend, especially as this week my family are going away and I shall have the whole time to revise alone, then I will actually get something done.

I feel bad but I can't help but wonder sometimes if two wrongs do make a right... sometimes it's entirely necessary, especially when I'm doing less. If you feel hurt and someone hasn't actually DONE all that much is it still right for you to think that they have done something wrong? Or am I just searching for justifications here... but then again, if we're talking about timing then that cannot be the case.

Oh I don't know.
I do hope the weather perks up because I intend on having a picnic in the park with Gareth this study leave, but it's been raining all night and all morning now and it's just depressing.

I'm going to have a cooking week next week as I shall have the freedom to do what I want, that is... if my grandparents (who live over the road) leave me the fuck alone ¬¬ Last time I spent some time at home alone I got phone calls every God-damned day and it REALLY did my head in. As much as I'm thinking 'no surely this time they'll realise I'm 17(!!) and not do it I should probably realise that I'm just kidding myself and not only will THEY ring me every minute of everyday but I will also get it from my other grandparents ¬¬ Well, at least I can try the answer 'yes I'm revising' to their question of 'are we disturbing you?' *shrugs*