Well on Sunday I lost my best friend to Uni the other day and I feel like I've lost a bit of me. I really do. I realize how cheesy that must sound and I would have thought it myself before all this happened but there is always some truth in the cheese... and now I really feel it.
I won't go into all the things that make me sad as a result of him leaving because... of course... it will make me sad, and I don't want to be sad because I'm trying to think that he's having a great time and I will be in 4 days when I go off to uni too. I'm trying to think positively and, although it's hard because I will miss everything so much and I miss him so much and I never wanted anything to change, I'm trying not to write too much of the sadness down.
But now I'm listening to Amy MacDonald and this music reminds me of him. I'm getting just a little shivery right now.
I must remember not to cry, I must remember not to cry, I must remember not to cry... and yet it came. 'That's my best buddy that is'... and there it was.
Please don't forget me.
X
Tuesday, 25 September 2007
Thursday, 13 September 2007
'And it hurts with every heartbeat'
Well it has been exactly 2 months since my last post, so it's probably about time I wrote another one. Haven't been to Middleton in while actually, so there is surprisingly little to report on the horse riding front. It's just been too busy with uni stuff! But i'll try and get a lesson booked for next week and the week after, or maybe more. We'll see. I did hire Oliver for 2 days for my birthday, which was lovely. I got 4 hours of riding on him over those 2 days and had a long time to bond with him. And I think I did because he soon started coming to me in the stable rather than me having to move him round and stuff to groom him and pick out his feet etc. And he started lifting his feet for me rather than me having to shout at him :p So that was good. The next main bit of riding I did after that was at Jo's. I went for the day and in the morning I rode Pippa (the ex-polo pony/crazy idiot),with Jo on Duska and Rob on Phizz, in this sort of park place where there were a number of open spaces where we planned to have a couple of long canters. Of course, Pippa decided canter was too slow and despite the speed of the other horse and pony she felt it necessary to full gallop both of the runs. After the hill she took on at this speed I think she must have realised that maybe she ought to calm down. I've never heard anything pant so loudly!! Anyway, we got back to the stable and Rob took Pip and I tacked up Ernie, the 16.5hh ex-Cheltenham racehorse/national hunter, and we had a jumping session in the paddock. Ernie is an absolute angel and I loved him to pieces. He flew over those jumps like they werent there and having ridden him I have learned that I much prefer to ride/jump bigger horses. 16.5hh may have looked pretty big but I must say it feels a lot better to ride than something smaller (sorry Oli :p)
Anyways, enough of horse riding, seeing as there is much much much to talk about. As regards uni... I got A,A,C,C and into Lancaster :D and we went to see the accommodation the other day and it is absolutely wonderful. Couldn't have got anything better. So I'm off there on the 30th September... I'll keep you posted :p
Gareth only has til the 23rd!!! It is TOOOO soon :(
I finish work on the 23rd actually, which will be good and bad. Good because im getting rather bored of the place and fed up with the company's stupid changes. Bad because it will be sad to leave the place i've worked at for a year and a half and all the fantastic people i've met there.
Currently trying to sort my room out to go to uni. (well, not currently because at this present moment i'm quite obviously typing on this here laptop (which i got for my birthday :P))
My birthday was great, except that i had to share it with results day. But everyone's results were good so at least everyone was happy. Went for a thai meal in the evening which was really different and really nice. I would definately 100% recommend it.
Went to Ireland for 2 weeks with my parents before my birthday, which was great. Dublin is incredible, as is Guinness, leprechauns, Irish pony trekking and generally everything else we experienced there.
Not long come back off holiday with Gareth. We went to Tenby for a week which was grrreat fun :D spent a lot of time on the beach because the weather was really good. Even went down there two nights to finish chocolate/wine to look at the sea and the stars etc. Saw two shooting stars, which was just amazing. The holiday also consisted of walking 2.5miles to go pony trekking, setting off the fire alarm with the grill, walking into a coach party's game in the Imperial, a lovely meal in the Plantagenet and lots and lots of craziness. Fantastic :D
This holiday I have read a quite a few more books than usual: 'The Magician's Guild' and 'The Novice' (both by Trudy Canavan), 'The Sword in the Storm' (David Gemmel), 'Lair' (James Herbert) and 'Morningstar' (David Gemmel). Then there are a number that i've either started or need to finish or read... 'The Interpretation of Murder' (not far off finishing), 'Kiss Of Shadows ' (have been meaning to finish for a long time), 'The Treasured One' (by David Eddings, to read but not started yet), 'The Dice Man' (started), 'Tipping The Velvet' (beautiful... need to finish), 'The Zombie Survival Guide' (a birthday present I have not read much of yet) and 'Ulysses' (kind of difficult, have started but wont be finished for a while yet). I also need to buy 'The High Lord' which follows after 'The Novice' and 'The Magicians Guild', but not yet. So the priorities at the moment are 'The Interpretation of Murder', 'Tipping the Velvet', 'The Dice Man' and 'Kiss of Shadows' (if i can get back into it after all this time). I love books, I really do.
Hmmmm, I can't think of things to write!!! I did have plenty in my head when I started writing this post... now I can't remember.
Oh, I've become a little addicted to World of Warcraft. I currently have a level 12 Blood Elf Paladin and a level 35/36 (or something like that) Night Elf Druid. Wahay. I love the Druid-ness of the Night Elf. Ok enough of that... it's very sad.
Went to the safari park with Katie this holiday, which was cool. Got to see the white lions who had about 3 cubs (awwwww!) So cute.
Have re-discovered the Old Irish Harp. It's actually really nice there now.
Best album bought since last post: Darren Hayes's new album 'This Delicate Thing We've Made'. 25 (I think) tracks of wonderfulness :D
Maybe I shall write another post when I remember all I was going to say. Or I'll add it to this post with a section that says 'EDIT:' or something. God I wish I could remember!!! Having just scrolled up this box I have realised that yet again the biggest paragraph of the whole post containing one topic is dedicated to horse riding. I'm sorry about that, it's just stuck in my head I guess. There are of course things that have happened that I do not wish to go into though. Maybe that is what is festering in my head, tricking me into thinking I have a lot more to write. Yes, maybe that's it...
But yes, I'm working tonight instead of yesterday night to cover for Charlie... so I need to go get tea. Hopefully it's wine and chocolate night with Gareth tonight after work :)
'Til next time
Anyways, enough of horse riding, seeing as there is much much much to talk about. As regards uni... I got A,A,C,C and into Lancaster :D and we went to see the accommodation the other day and it is absolutely wonderful. Couldn't have got anything better. So I'm off there on the 30th September... I'll keep you posted :p
Gareth only has til the 23rd!!! It is TOOOO soon :(
I finish work on the 23rd actually, which will be good and bad. Good because im getting rather bored of the place and fed up with the company's stupid changes. Bad because it will be sad to leave the place i've worked at for a year and a half and all the fantastic people i've met there.
Currently trying to sort my room out to go to uni. (well, not currently because at this present moment i'm quite obviously typing on this here laptop (which i got for my birthday :P))
My birthday was great, except that i had to share it with results day. But everyone's results were good so at least everyone was happy. Went for a thai meal in the evening which was really different and really nice. I would definately 100% recommend it.
Went to Ireland for 2 weeks with my parents before my birthday, which was great. Dublin is incredible, as is Guinness, leprechauns, Irish pony trekking and generally everything else we experienced there.
Not long come back off holiday with Gareth. We went to Tenby for a week which was grrreat fun :D spent a lot of time on the beach because the weather was really good. Even went down there two nights to finish chocolate/wine to look at the sea and the stars etc. Saw two shooting stars, which was just amazing. The holiday also consisted of walking 2.5miles to go pony trekking, setting off the fire alarm with the grill, walking into a coach party's game in the Imperial, a lovely meal in the Plantagenet and lots and lots of craziness. Fantastic :D
This holiday I have read a quite a few more books than usual: 'The Magician's Guild' and 'The Novice' (both by Trudy Canavan), 'The Sword in the Storm' (David Gemmel), 'Lair' (James Herbert) and 'Morningstar' (David Gemmel). Then there are a number that i've either started or need to finish or read... 'The Interpretation of Murder' (not far off finishing), 'Kiss Of Shadows ' (have been meaning to finish for a long time), 'The Treasured One' (by David Eddings, to read but not started yet), 'The Dice Man' (started), 'Tipping The Velvet' (beautiful... need to finish), 'The Zombie Survival Guide' (a birthday present I have not read much of yet) and 'Ulysses' (kind of difficult, have started but wont be finished for a while yet). I also need to buy 'The High Lord' which follows after 'The Novice' and 'The Magicians Guild', but not yet. So the priorities at the moment are 'The Interpretation of Murder', 'Tipping the Velvet', 'The Dice Man' and 'Kiss of Shadows' (if i can get back into it after all this time). I love books, I really do.
Hmmmm, I can't think of things to write!!! I did have plenty in my head when I started writing this post... now I can't remember.
Oh, I've become a little addicted to World of Warcraft. I currently have a level 12 Blood Elf Paladin and a level 35/36 (or something like that) Night Elf Druid. Wahay. I love the Druid-ness of the Night Elf. Ok enough of that... it's very sad.
Went to the safari park with Katie this holiday, which was cool. Got to see the white lions who had about 3 cubs (awwwww!) So cute.
Have re-discovered the Old Irish Harp. It's actually really nice there now.
Best album bought since last post: Darren Hayes's new album 'This Delicate Thing We've Made'. 25 (I think) tracks of wonderfulness :D
Maybe I shall write another post when I remember all I was going to say. Or I'll add it to this post with a section that says 'EDIT:' or something. God I wish I could remember!!! Having just scrolled up this box I have realised that yet again the biggest paragraph of the whole post containing one topic is dedicated to horse riding. I'm sorry about that, it's just stuck in my head I guess. There are of course things that have happened that I do not wish to go into though. Maybe that is what is festering in my head, tricking me into thinking I have a lot more to write. Yes, maybe that's it...
But yes, I'm working tonight instead of yesterday night to cover for Charlie... so I need to go get tea. Hopefully it's wine and chocolate night with Gareth tonight after work :)
'Til next time
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