Can you feel it?

Revision has got the point where i'm finding it pretty difficult to actually read what is on a page and actually making it go in. I can't absorb anymore! I don't know how to revise any more of english because I have no motivation and no energy and no will to do any practise papers. I just want them to be over but I can't be sure if i'm ready. I'm sure Psychology Unit 4 will be ok, the English war exam will suck but i'll battle through it. General studies... well, I just don't know. I don't know how to revise for that either. Biology... I don't really care to be perfectly honest. The two other english exams, I don't know how I can do any more for those, and then Psychology unit 5 is going to be awful... it's that that's scaring me now! I've just realised how much there is! But I do have a week to revise that after Wednesday... along with biology... and the rest of english... oh god. At least I know there's not much more I need to do for English, and at least I know I don't care about Biology. So I shall focus on Unit 5. The 'Microbes and Disease' biology paper can just go to Hell. I do NOT want to know.

Anyway. Enough moaning for now. I might start watching the USA version of Queer as Folk, the actors had better be good! But I shall miss the dude who plays Stuart.

I need to get some more pens and the like this afternoon, or a 3 hour exam on monday will be a bit pointless. You know, I can't even be bothered to do that! I want to just sit outside with a book and a glass of wine and know that in the evening I may be having a barbeque or seeing my neighbours or some other friends or Sam or that we're going out or that we're having a big chicken dinner, playing Magic games, going to the pub or a gig or that after this meal I can sit around watching something awesome or sitting outside at night with people and knowing that the next day I can go out, Sutton, Birmingham, the park, anywhere! So long as I'm not revising. I'd just like to be able to do all of that and know that I don't have to time how long my break from revision is and I don't have exams starting Monday. Well, I've decided on my back-up plan if all goes to crap in my exams... I shall work with horses. I shall go study Equine Science or Equine Studies where the entrance grades are DDD or CCC or something like that and then I shall work with horses and teach people to ride and how to look after them. I will be having so much fun. Ok so i'd be wearing jodhpurs everyday rather than a suit but I know i'd be happy, so at least I have a good back-up plan. Makes me question why I'm going to uni to do what I am going to do actually, thinking about it!

I think I will stop there because I'm not really sure what I came on here planning to write, so that will do.